This track means a lot to me...Its the semi produced one...I'm sorry everyone that this is taking a long time...but I thought I'd make it up to you by at least providing the semi produced instrumental. Its about a close suicide attempt in my junior of high school. I really want to reach out to others who have been severely depressed as well. This amazing girl helped me...Unfortunately, I think I freaked her out when I did some creepy, nice tings like attending her events and buying her little things as thanks. During this time, I was severely depressed and had no one to turn too..There were a lot of issues going on at home and so many officials got involved...They were obligated to do their job so no one really listened to me emotionally.....It was hard and I had maybe one or two distant friends that I would hang out with occasionally so I couldn't go and talk to them....So when she did listen I thought I could make a genuine friend...It was the 1st time I truly spilled my heart and what was going on to somebody to understand...and I wanted to do more than a simple thanks...It hurt finding that out about her not wanting to be friends...but I don't blame her/anyone because not everyone can relate to being as depressed to being suicidal...Not everyone wants to hang around with someone who is depressed because they are busy with their own lives and don't want to deal with those problems...plus, they don't want to carry the guilt...Sometimes people don't know what to do either when they can't relate...The person people thought I was at school, the hyperactive asian, was the not person I am outside...I sorta put on a mask to escape because I didn't want to deal with these issues outside...no one knew...and I guess I felt better when I put myself out there more...and knew people were embarrassed to be around me...but they didn't give me enough of a chance to show who I was outside of school...And so that's how this song came about...Its about how I was desperate for a REAL friend that would listen...but didn't want to be friends after I tried in the most crazy ways....I know that she is not going to talk to me after this and people will criticize me because it might rub the wrong way off of some people...but I'm doing this to help others because not that many artists address people who are depressed and are going through these issues...and telling a true story would be the best way to go about it...I'm not sorry for doing this because I still admire and respect the person that helped me...and if she thinks I'm a creep/freak...then so be it...I talked to several other people within my high school years who had similar experiences and making this impact is necessary....If you've managed to read this entire page, then thank you...I'm truly grateful and blessed. Thanks.